I am done
All the fight in me is gone
I have no strength left to fight
If feel that it will never be all right
I can’t keep losing
It’s to mush bruising
I can’t take any more pain
I’m at the and of my game
I don’t think people understand
What it feels like to be at the losing hand
I’m ready to give up my life
If this feeling will stay all the time
People tell me to be strong
The say, just hold on
They have no idea
It’s not op to me
My mind and feelings have a life of their own
No matter what I do, the keep on this show
When I’m way down deep in a hole, I cannot make it out alone.
i cannot ask for help because that will mean I field again.
Why can’t anyone see when I’m going down, so they can keep me up off the ground.
All I hear is don’t give up. I don’t want to, I just can’t see when it gets better.
Just give me the strength I need to make it through or to be able to and this all so I can finally catch my breath and see thing through.
©Ilona Brandwacht 26-08-2012