My feelings are a mess
All I do is guess
Guess what I think is real
What I think I feel
I have no clue
How to get true
I’m doing everything
Just to hold it in
How I feel
This doesn’t seem real
It feels like I’m in pain
It’s a feeling I can’t explain
I need to cry
I’m afraid to try
Afraid It won’t dry
The tears in my eye
Afraid to let it go
Afraid to show
Show what I really feel
Let this be real
If I might cry
And can’t explain why
Will they understand?
What if they can’t?
Afraid to let them in
Let them see beneath my skin
All I want is a little hope
That I’ll be able to cope
I need to do this for me
I shouldn’t care who will see
I need to let this out
Even if I it means I need to shout
Just let is out
Without having a doubt
Letting these feeling go
Just let it show
©Ilona Brandwacht 16-06-2015